I've just been so frustrated lately.


That is all.

Hey everyone LostBlackSoul here A.K.A Megan

So, some of you maybe wondering what have I been up too? Where have I gone? What the hell am I doing that is so important that I do not visit?! Well..... uh.....umm....I've missed you guys

So the main thing I have been doing since you've last seen me is I have been going to college full time. That has been consuming a major chuck of my time. I still am working two jobs, but don't worry, I still only work them on the weekends. So pretty much I am work 10am to 10 pm on Saturday and Sunday.

Encase you guys did not I am going to school for Nursing. I go to Portland State University so in the next year I will have to transfer to a nursing school when the prerequisite classes are done.

I also have been trying to get into this amazing no profit organization. It is called the Childrens Cancer Association and I am trying to be a Chemopal to a child for 18 months or until they recover from their cancer. I currently have passed the interview stage and now I have to make sure all my shot records are up to date so I can enter a hospital setting. I am so excited because these guys are teamed up with Dornbecker Childrens Hospital to help out these children. I want to be apart of that so much, I want these kids to know their is more than just their family there rooting for them to get better.

SO besides work, school and volunteering,I have been spending time with my family and my boyfriend because they are all really important to me( who is currently gone for two weeks doing some training with the navy ). I also have been trying to think what to do for my birthday? I mean I am just going to be 19 so I don't think people are going to making a big deal out of that.

I am trying to better budget my time to where I have more time to do what I love but still get things done. I want to be able to draw again, come chat on DA again, hang out with friends more and I think I can do it as long as I can do it in moderation.

My last order of business is a fun one . If anyone out there has seen any amazing ideas for Crow tattoos let me know. Or if you want to draw me one let me know. I just am big into the Native American culture and I love them crow and it has big meaning in my family. I also would love a dove one, because again there is big family meaning for it in my family.

Well take care everyone Talk to you later.

*Well not to much really the Christmas season in retail always gets so busy where all of december i work like 35 hour weeks @_@

*There is always the lovely School and homework to do

*Im single again lol, I got dumped o well everyone says ill find someone better and ill just wait and see where life takes me hehe

* i havent been drawing lately WAAHHHH im so lame

* Ive been hanging out alot with my friends Gio, Res and Alex i love them there all 3 like my little brothers you can say haha.

* Im still applying for scholarships and what not because im trying not to pay to much for college if i dont have to.

Well that is about it Now how about you guys leave me comments and tell me what you have been up too i miss you guys.

Well hello you guys

I am so sorry I have not been around lately, I feel awful. IM SORRY!!!

But things i have done since i have been away.

* I work 5 days a week( pft... no fun-_- but i like being paid )
* On my days off I try to take my mom to the store or see Jeff
* I'm starting to prepare for college by applying for as many scholarships as possible.
* I have Homework because i also go to school full time.
* I dyed my Hair Red hehehe i have a few pictures up.
* I also cut my hair too ( it feels so much lighter!!!!!! i Love it )
* I'm attempting to do volunteer work @_@ its just finding time..... I know i can find time some where!!! T_T.....
* WHAHAHA I've been baking a lot of cookies and muffins because i like taking them to my grandpa at least once every 2 weeks ( or whenever im off work. )
* OOOOO I finally saw my cousins this weekend that was nice because i have not seen them in a while.
* I've been working a lot to save money for a cruise ( have to have spending money right.)
* I ACTUALLY CLEANED MY ROOM!!!!!!!!! (its been 2 months..... )
* I am starting to get sick my nose is all running and icky
* Ummmmm I am trying to think for stuff to add to this @_@ O!!!! i finally got out of my house today and walked around outside so maybe there is some chance i wont always be pasty white
* I have been attempting to fix my vehicle lately since for some reason there is always something wrong with it so hopefully an oil change tomorrow will make it work better.

Well there is some stuff i have done i can not think of anything else because its past eleven at night and im tired and i have school tomorrow...... so ill talk to you guys soon i hope!!!!

BYE BYE!!!!!!!!!

WEEEEE So yay its not my birthday yet but i made a goal for myself whahaha Im going to try and get 6000 pageviews before my Birthday Which is on March 30th and its the day after my 2 year aniversary on this beloved site Deviantart

Heh so any ideas what i should do for the person who gets the 6000 pageview? Leave a comment and tell me what im opened to suggestions

Later u guys

~Megan <3